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Why do people hurt the one that is closest to them? This seems to be a constant thing, with everyone. You'd think if they were the most important person in their life that you would never hurt them or do anything that could possibly hurt them, right? I guess it's not like that for everyone because one thing leads to another and then you hurt them.

Hurting someone you love is one of the most painfull things. You feel horrible, and regret everything instantly, and you only want to make them happy and you'll do whatever it takes to get them happy. But by then, it seems it's already too late. You've messed up and they're so angry and think that you don't care enough to be able to not hurt them. They just don't know that they mean the world to you and you would never ever hurt them intentionally. Even if you do hurt them and you know you could have prevented it, it was never intentional. It's just a matter of thinking before you make a stupid move that could end up horrible. Thinking is easy, of course, but when you panic or your mind gets caught up in everything, it's difficult to think rationally.

Some people get to date someone they found, and they're happy and have a good relationship. However, I get to date my best friend and it's the best thing in the world. I don't always think straight or take my time to think, but I need to learn how to. For the sake of me, and especially him.